Missing - April 24, 2012

[note: this was written during a writing exercise: we had 20 minutes to write something inspired by the word "missing". This is the result, unedited, exactly as it appeared when time ran out. You can read all of them in the waves category]

Missing - Squiddy Geiger - April 24, 2012

I had it all planned. I knew exactly what I was going to do, when I was going to do it, and how it would be accomplished. It was all going to be so perfect.

And then you came along.

You appeared in a flash, you rampaged through my emotions, then disappeared. Without so much as a word. You left me broken and empty. And I got so far off track that I don't know if I can get where I was headed.

Oh, please don't misunderstand, I loved every minute of our misadventures, and yes, it was my fault I let things slide to be with you. I know this. So I don't blame you for any of this; I wish merely to explain, and by explaining, perhaps understand things better myself.

While we played, a year of carefully built foundations leading to the next phase of my plan were thrown aside. The planning had gone smoothly, the building had been easy and successful. It may take longer this time, or, if the Gods are kind, it will go faster. I don't know which.

I have my friends to help me. They're good friends, and they'll guide me when necessary, and kick me mentally when it is needed, as they always have. I have good friends. They allowed me to ignore them for you, and accepted me back when it was over.

I hope you are well where you've gone, that your journeys are fulfilling, and that you find what you are seeking. There is a piece missing from my soul now. It will always be missing, even as I build around it and find other things to replace it. No, not replace. Nothing can replace you. But I will grow and prosper again soon, even while I miss you.

Posted by Squiddy at April 24, 2012 08:44 PM | TrackBack