Hollow - April 25, 2012

[note: this was written during a writing exercise: we had 20 minutes to write something inspired by the word "hollow". This is the result, unedited, exactly as it appeared when time ran out. You can read all of them in the waves category]

Hollow- Squiddy Geiger - April 25, 2012

The page was empty. God, I hated that, but I loved it, too. The fear and dread of drawing a blank, mixed with the wonder of a completely open sheet, knowing your writing could take you anywhere; no boundaries had been set yet, anything and everything was still allowed.

Unfortunately, I was drawing a blank on this occasion. It didn't bother me as much as it used to, though. I used to get angry and frustrated when the words wouldn't come, but now, it was ok. I knew if I just let my mind wander for a bit, it would find something to start us off.

My thoughts flitted here and there, searching for inspiration. Nothing yet, move on, keep moving. Until they headed into more hazardous territory, and I was lost. Now I couldn't write, because I'd fallen into the pit, remembering a time long past. A time with her.

I wallowed in lost love. I gorged myself on self pity. I went over all I had lost when she left. She'd ripped my heart out, she'd stomped on it, and then kicked it into a corner. I suffered as I'd suffered then. I'd thought myself safe from this, but I'd been fooling myself.

After what seemed like hours, but proved to be less than one, I stared at the page again. It seemed to taunt me now. It dared me to find something to write about, but I could not. My mind was empty, my heart hollow and barren. I hated myself for feeling this way.

Then, my Muse spoke to me. I nodded, and smiled at her. This was it. I would rip her out of my mind, and banish her to the written page. She would never ambush me again. I started to type, and the words flowed, and as they flowed, the hollow was replaced with contentment. Before I knew it, it was morning, and the pages had been filled.

The hollow was gone.

Posted by Squiddy at April 25, 2012 11:55 PM | TrackBack